Day 183

“And He will raise you up on eagles’ wings
Bear you on the breath of dawn
Make you to shine like the sun
And hold you in the palm of His hand.”

For the first time today I watched the recording of the Memorial service that was held on the 9th of November 2014. The event had been put together by his friends. Their love for him shone through every word, every song and everyone’s presence. He did hold a special place in their hearts.

I have not said this before but after seeing his suffering, I can see how suicide cured his pain. I am not angry for his decision as I am not sure I would have had the strength to continue for as long as he did. Many did not know of his suffering. He let very few people see it. Those of us who loved him do not fault him for leaving his life behind. I do hate his illness though. It moved faster than his acceptance of it.

I will never be the same. None of us who know him ever will. But I know I have been blessed to have known a soul such as him. This is a gift few are given.

2 thoughts on “Day 183

  1. I struggle to understand. I often feel that I didn’t quite fathom the gravity of the situation when I was in it. It is late now. But I do hope that together we can all have a better understanding. You are a big help. Thank you. xxx

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