
This is not a monastery, a hermitage or a cave.
It is our one-bedroom house. No bellringing to tell me it’s time to go to the church hall to pray.
No fixed routines. No group meditations. No tedious chores.
This is my home. I have been here by myself for 6 weeks. Mostly silent. Listening. Being.
The wind, whispers and then howls, bashing the banana plantation outside my window, pushing all the birds back into their nests, felling trees and forcing me to stay indoors.
The monsoon makes a dramatic entry, takes over the skies.
The morning ritual of making ginger tea. I sit by the big window, drinking it, present to the light of the day. Grateful for it, I smile.
The luxury of silence and solitude!
I drive to the farm. Today is the day to plant a raintree. Early monsoon is a good time for it. The three feet tall sapling has travelled on an overnight train all the way from a friend’s garden in Goa. Known for its fifteen-meter-wide umbrella shaped canopy, it needs a lot of space. We mark the spot on a clearing, dig a hole, put the root ball into the moist soil, add some compost and cover it up. Two sticks support the young tree and it’s on its own. Good luck, Buddy.
My brother calls in the evening to inform me about the air-crash in Gujarat.
I light a candle and sit with my eyes closed. Tears streaming down my face, my chest bursting with pain. God bless their souls and their families. God bless them all.
Night arrives. Si calls up. He asks if I was aware that yet another war had begun in the middle east. I didn’t.
Why? Isn’t there enough suffering in the world already?
I think about the raintree. I wonder if it will survive this sharp heavy monsoon. Who can say? No one.
Silence. Solitude. Surrender.

