Music transforms ones inner landscape, especially when played live. This evening’s jazz and blues concert was an amalgamation of sounds that transported me into exotic locations straight out of the National Geographic. At times it sounded like a gentle swish of water running over curved surfaces and other times it was a noisy stream flowing strongly while little droplets of light fell randomly all around it. The ebb, flow and beauty of the rhythms reflected the life forces in and around me.

For a long time I had been hoping to go to this particular jazz bar with my son but somehow never got around to doing it. Hope is hopeless. It’s best to just get on and do it. He would have loved it! My attention goes naturally towards the percussionist as I am the mother of one.

There I sat in this dark atmospheric bar, remembering the time when I was pregnant with him. Everyone said, “You must eat for two”. By that measure, now I should enjoy life for two. Smile twice as much, experience double the joy, look after my family and friends on his behalf too and be love times two.

It may sound strange but often I feel his presence near me, especially when I am with his close friends or doing the things he liked doing.

“We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.”

– Pierre Teilhard de Chardin