After spending about 2 hours at the hardware store discussing the colours, designs, appliances and tiles for our proposed new kitchen, we realised that we were not even half way through the project! It was taking much longer than we thought it would. While my partner had done extensive research and was very excited about the possibilities, I found it difficult to experience or express much eagerness for a ceramic sink as opposed to a stainless steel one. While I was physically present at the store, seemingly participating in the process, my mind was quietly whispering, “How does any of this matter?”
Even being disinterested was tiring. After a while I clearly saw the pointlessness of my being there and decided to shift gear. “Right now, I am here. None of it really matters but let’s just pretend it does.” I got a cup of tea and then actually got involved, looking closely at the brochures and displays. The handles of the cabinets definitely make a difference. So, I picked a set of those and that felt really good. Before we knew it another 2 hours were gone. They were enjoyable and passed rather quickly.
I suppose there is something to be said for enthusiasm – it is life.
“You will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm.”