My dearest darling Saagar,

I didn’t know it was possible to love someone before they were born and after they die.
I didn’t know that love and grief can be felt at the same time with killing intensity.
I didn’t know that my heart could get past the shock of loosing you and carry on beating, however tremulously.
I didn’t know that the thought of never seeing you again could be compatible with my life.
I didn’t know Time could stretch and shrink within a few moments, spastically.
I didn’t know that the commonly held belief that ‘Time heals’ is a myth.
I didn’t know that loving connections between people are the most precious things in the world.
I didn’t know that my inner and outer landscapes could be so extremely opposite.
I didn’t know that our lives could be so tightly and beautifully intertwined.
I didn’t know your pain and suffering, only your loving generosity of spirit.
I know now. Thank you.

I am deeply grateful for this day and for every day that we were together on this planet.
Now, I also know that love is stronger than death. I love you. Mamma. xxx